- I'm nuts.

- Back to feeling very optimistic. Obsessively holding your pee and peeing on multiple sticks throughout the day will do that to you. Behold! Progressively darker lines!

- I can't tell you how many times I have stopped in my tracks today and said a prayer for God to *please* let this be real this time and to please let me keep this one. I know it's in all in his hands anyway, and I also know I am a horrible control freak who pees on too many sticks needs to be taught lessons about letting God back in the driver's seat, but I really hope he can overlook that just this once.

- Tom still has no clue, even though he was WITH me this morning when I bought two more boxes of pregnancy tests. I promise you, he won't even think to ask the results. Men are so funny. ;) I'm trying to act normal, but it's really hard. Especially when I keep running out of the room to pee on a stick.

- I told you I was nuts.

- I feel like I should wait until at least Wednesday when my period is actually due to call my doctor. I've cried wolf three times already this year... although technically not really "wolf" because I DID have positive tests... they just didn't last very long.

- I doubt I will actually wait that long to call her.

- I told you I was nuts.