We decided not to tell anyone yesterday. I was having kind of an off day with more lower back pain and some cramping...

I've decided I definitely need some concrete "all is well" evidence before I tell anyone else. All I can really do is wait for something to happen and then on the 13th, I have the doctor's appointment and ultrasound. If I get really desperate, I will take my other doctor up on running another round of bloodwork, but I honestly don't think I can mentally handle waiting around for a phone call for the news one way or the other.

I had a miscarriage dream two nights ago, which, along with all the discomfort yesterday did NOT help me feel any better. (my m/c dreams are notorious for coming true) Although, during the same dream, I was in a room with a woman (who was not me, but in the dream I thought she was.... you know how dreams are) who was talking with these four identical blonde, curly-haired little girls when she realized they were actually her daughters she was pregnant with and she was just getting to talk to them before they were born. I am certain I do not have four babies in there... but I did think the general idea was interesting and I wonder what it means. My pregnancy dreams are almost always relevant in one way or another, so I always make sure do document them. Anyway, I hope the good manages to outweigh the bad in this particular one.

Anyway... back to waiting...

Labels: dreams, month 2